Teacher Notes

"The paper is a bit too short with such large margins between paragraphs etc. The event sounds as if it was a powerful one that had a huge impact on you even after all the time that has passed since that day. I understand the main point, but the details of the event were hard to follow. Your writing creates a powerful image, but needs to be written more clearly with transition from one main point to the other. For example, I do not understand the last sentence. It needs more precision and detail to be easy to follow. Overall, it is a good paper. Thanks for sharing such a powerful event. Thinking for yourself can leave you separate from the crowd, but you are also more likely to live by your own standards. People with this style rarely have many regrets, though it is hard to always be strong against the social pressure of others."

Narrowness

"I should not talk so much about myself if there were anybody else whom I knew as well. Unfortunately, I am confined to this theme by the narrowness of my experience. Moreover, I, on my side, require of every writer, first or last, a simple and sincere account of his own life, and not merely what he has heard of other men's lives; some such account as he would send to his kindred from a distant land; for if he has lived sincerely, it must have been in a distant land to me."


"A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work. But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things."

Mechanism

Flash. Give me mindless busy work as a coping mechanism. 

"Wake up." 

"I'm trying."

Bah

A class filled to the brim with artistic sheep. Be creative. Be different, unique, and be yourself. Follow my created steps to be exactly as I am doing exactly what I do. But mostly, be you. Let go, but remain following these instructions, rules, regulations and codes. Obey the schedule, the schedule to be an individual. Follow someone's specific details, to be yourself; a goddamn artist.

DRY

I have gotten so terribly drab.

The idea that humans as an individual are working towards something, making some sort of (positive) impact, or of some great significance, is of enormous interest to me. I also believe strongly that the notion of putting meaning to this ambiguous life is something that every person on earth should find somewhat intriguing, with a mysterious but promising death to inevitably face. With such an impending fact plaguing the mind at least time to time a person must find a purpose to continue on with their life whether it be going as planned or miserably awry. The goal of my paper is to discuss the most prominent of meanings and explanations to a person’s lifespan, and regardless of there being an event after one’s passing, the reason that they exist before it occurs.

Purpose

"WHAT IS OF PURPOSE IN THIS EXISTENCE?"

Sieve

LET THE SEVERE SCHOOL INDUCED DEPRESSION ENSUE

College

"Some one asked me what she was taking up in college. 
I told him "space"."

This Was Written

A while ago:


"I think that it's very rare for someone to fully appreciate the event of having them make the right decision, and benefitting from that choice. We're all so caught up with bad things happening, unlucky events, negative choices/their negative repercussions. It's such a truly excellent feeling to know your own happiness is a result from nothing, but yourself. There are probably thousands and thousands of times a day where every person needs to make a choice. Sometimes they are forgotten moments later, and sometimes they still sting years and years later. Whether they are big or small choices posed, both can so easily bring joy (miniscule or large) to someone else's life or your own. Decisions are the most important thing in the world. And many say your death is not in your own hands. I believe every decision in life not only defines your life by determines your death. I also believe there is no such thing as an unimportant choice, because everything no matter how small, slightly (or largely) effects something later on. Or at least is adding to your character and simply who you are as a person."

Lights

I hate school, 
from the bright white florescent lights to the 1-ply toilet paper, 
from the faded dry erase markers to 
the swivel computer monitor stands.

Less Than

high school > college. (and i do not mean greater than or equal to.)

"Dream" - An In-Class Essay

This, much like the entirety of all my school work, is not to be taken seriously.

(Keep in mind I got a 10/10 on this assignment, and strongly believe that the lack-of-teacher's-comments is the result of a lack-of-teacher-comprehension.)

The American Dream I believe is something nearly everyone desires, yet nearly no one obtains. You may wonder why something so vague and seemingly hopeless, is at the same time so terribly wanted, and almost needed by so many. The reason would be because underneath all the "fluff" and apparent nonsense there lies something everyone world-wide longs for; happiness.

The American Dream can be easily broken down into parts, the first (and possibly easiest to create) is the appearance (and sometimes reality) of success, money and stature. Happiness to many Americans is a big home, a big TV and a big lifestyle. The media, along with plenty of other outlets has lead America to believe that those things are more than normal, but actually essential to happiness, and further more, perfection.

Another category of importance is the home-life-style/family portion of life. Traditional perfect home-life and a perfect marriage with nearly perfect children is attempted to be created. This dream alone is dramatically unrealistic when more than half of these families will unfortunately end in divorce (which could also easily change the financial state).

Lastly, but the most vital aspects of The American Dream, the almost "back-bone" are happiness and perfection. Once everything is in place, these said families expect to be immediately rewarded with permanent and unbeatable satisfaction; perfection. What makes the so-called American Dream is the unsaid ending result that will never be. It is true that material things such as houses or even electronics can make a person happier, but the question it all really comes down to is: can real happiness and true perfection come from this foggy life known as The American Dream? That cannot be answered, or should not be answered by anyone else, for anyone else. So whether or not the dream is based on a false story or a fake made-up to make money, what it really comes down to is what it actually is.

What is fact is that The American Dream is more than frequently desired, yet so rarely accurately created. Perfection and happiness are made from within, so if this lifestyle is replicated by the right person, the desired outcome I believe could, and would be reached.