Bending Over Backwards

Kismet

"Katie stood up. ―Why are you telling me this?

       ―Because, listen Katie, I am probably becoming obsessed with you. To be honest, I am, like, almost definitely not crazy. I really don’t even want to die anymore. If I can avoid it, I don’t ever want to die, but I’ve fashioned myself to act in a way that will make it seem like I am crazy. You know, in hopes that you’re the type of woman who responds to that stuff.
       ―But see, like, you have to understand that impulse is extremely unsound. Like that makes you seem to me that you are crazy. I feel on edge around you.
       ―Yeah I mean, I get it. But it’s not like that. I’m so normal that all I want to do is watch TV and be normal. Love a woman. Take a walk. Everything else is, like, an act.
       ―I don’t really care what it is. She wasn’t looking at him. ―It’s… It’s a distressing attitude to have to engage with."

In The Morning

I cut my teeth on cellphone speakers

all night cried my eyes out

and miraculously in the morning they had never left

Last Hurray

this weekend is it, and there is such inexplicable relief in that. 

I can feel the swirling heaviness shift shape into something devious

I must let it go

I must let you go

I was so excited to get close to someone so deeply incredible that I broke my rules

I played old games with new names 

and I left you so sad

and it left me just the same 

No Place on Earth

"There's no place

on earth I can hide

from the wrong I've done"

Striking Example

   “Love is a striking example of how little reality means to us.”

Half

“Angry, and half in love with you,
and tremendously sorry, 
I turned away.”