"what kind of love am I in?"

"I hope it hurts when you hear my name"

Man

if I had a Man's entitlement I would be happy.
then again I would not be cognizant of this whatsoever and would in actuality be sad.

Energy

  turns out energy and happiness are the same thing

Straightforward

"Most obstacles exist in the mind more than reality. If you encounter a block while on your way to work, you go around, find a detour, remain in action. Why then are there other blocks that seem impossible to surmount? Not much can stand in your way if you keep moving. Don’t lament about what you can’t do or complain about what you need to do – just do it. If you could just accept that a situation or relationship is challenging, you might find another alternative to dealing with it. By no means is this easy, it’s not supposed to be, but it is straightforward. Focus on what you want to create in the world, apply all of yourself and don’t be too proud to adjust along the way. Something you’ve been diligently pursuing needs some loosening up. Either physically or energetically. Walk away, take a break, do something different. Let go of your agitation and disappointment – hit the reset button – and focus on what brings you joy. A health or financial matter reaches its critical mass, time to get down to business."

Paid

nothing is free
which is to say there is a cost
and it will be paid

Will Go Down

"I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were"

"Day by day, night by night, he recedes, and I am increasingly faithless"

"I found the only girl I loved and drowned her deep inside of me"

"I feel more like a stranger each time I come home"

"Let's fall
Way deeper into whatever we're callin' it
Whatever we're fallin' into
'Cause I don't really care about rules
I don't really care about rules
I just really care about you
I'm enjoyin' starin' into
Your eyes when I'm all in it with you
They can choose to watch, but I'd rather they just listen
Could fill up an album with everything that they're missin'
They so superficial, don't understand how we're chillin'
We don't need a lot, we got us and that's why"

the noises you make in your sleep
remind me of the only thing I've ever loved
and make me believe
you could be the second

I guess that's why I named you after something
so special
and unexpected

The Problem

"I feel alone when we're apart"

The Kitchen's a Mess

my bed
still damp from the alcoholic sweats,
a fever that has us up until 2, and you getting out of bed exactly twelve hours after I did

I won't look back upon these years and laugh because I never did before
I know what is funny

my fingers, the joints tender and sore
the nervous cracking

"No one can take you away from me"