And How Dare You

"Am I really a dead dog if all of my meals are served to me hand-tossed on the cold floor?
I play dead when he creeps in, he muffles my breathin'
and I'm searchin' for a reason
inside a body lifeless cold and alone
I've never known different
in fact I'm indifferent, to anybody
this book's words are repeating and they dance on the ceiling
and they muffle my breathing and they call me names.




How dare you?"

This Now

"This Now."

Dining Dead

              "are we like couples you see in restaurants?                 

                 "

Winter's Going

"We unscrewed ourselves and made up new identities
walked across the water and slaughtered all our enemies
one hundred square feet was all the space we needed
I threw up my hands because I knew I was defeated
promises were thrown around just like confetti
and broken as easily as uncooked spaghetti
our fuses were short, and we went off like rockets
she gave me a kiss, and then I emptied my pockets


nothing to do but lay low and hide out
we sought shelter until the fireworks died out
the world was too much for us
made instead for insomniacs 
we played dead or else just stayed in bed
desperate for escape, we both needed a chance
to go it alone and by the seat of our pants
joined at the hips we took on the dreaded task
covered our eyes, crossed our fingers and headed west"

So Fickle

"It's just that people are so fickle

and really I could lose you

just as quickly as I've gotten you

and that's the kinda thought

that makes me nervous

I'm worried if you'll really think I'm worth it

when the rush wears off 

and you're left with this busted person

but if you tell me you will

I will do what I can to believe it

So baby all these things that I've seen

last night while asleep

this morning they're messing with me

and now I'm anxious as hell

and looking for help

to the pleasent and painless 

some story to tell

with a throughline of calm

that could stop me from being myself

Cause all I think is how I want to be your fever

just to know I make you heated
cause I'm worried you might see me more like a blanket
who's there for comfort and for cover
from the glare of former lovers
all the passion that kissed you and bit you
til you were devoured
and I'd like to get better
cause thinking like this is torture

Maybe if I wake up and quit dreaming

I could shake the shit i'm fearing
and I could feel like I'm just freaking out
for no good reason
I'll tell you what
it's a line I can cross once I get there
I'm not ever leaving"

Soft

                    "I'd walk soft if I were you."

Everybody

"Everybody has a box."

Quiet

                "It makes me wonder what else she didn't have the heart to tell me."

Like Anyones Asking

"I caught you caroling and giving grief

Thought you were cannonballing after me

I let your actions speak for themselves

And wished you well

But you're a mirror I cannot avoid

Strung out and jittery and paranoid

A leaky battery that cant keep charged

Get in the car and say what you mean

Explain yourself to me and I'll try not to judge you more than you would

Let me help, I promise not to tell

Like anyones asking or anyone should

First time I met you I was full of fear

Knew that eventually you'd disappear

Just when I needed you youd burn to smoke

And off you go

Just come back and peel away the mess

Lay here beside me and open your eyes

Take it back your dignity your tact

Turn back to the person you tried to let die

Open your mouth and say the words

You used to wish you heard

Back when you focused enough to be good

And if you're gone

An endless false alarm

Just remember I loved you

As long as I could"

""

That's What I Love

"That's what I love about fire, 

how it would kill me as quick as anybody else. 

How it can't know I'm its mother. 

It's so beautiful and powerful 

and beyond feeling anything for anybody, 

that's what I love about fire."

Story

You remember when we first met? Subsequent you wrote down that you found someone you could never lose, and would never want to forget. 
That I was safe and real, and everything that you wanted, and I bought it.

 "When you understand," Brandy says, "that what your telling is just a story. It isn't happening anymore. When you realize the story you're telling is just words, when you can just crumble it up and throw your past in the trashcan," Brandy says, "then we'll figure out who you're going to be."

Good

and when you turned away
this is what you chose to say
here's a box of all the good memories and you can keep it
and before i go, just know
if you tell someone enough they're too good for your they'll eventually believe it
i convinced myself it was a dream
it was the first time in my waking life everything had been exactly what it seemed
and that was not real to me
i see finally, at fault wasn't just my attitude
i chose not to listen when you repeated i'd never forgive you
you just never forgave me
that box you left me with well it just became me
and i know now you altered into the contrast
there were memories left out of mine, and you became that other half
i knew that, but just waited until the day that you'd find it in yourself to accept me
replaying the thoughts i believed to be in there, it was just dust you left me
when i opened that box, seeing crumbles of something i was certain i could mend
just bones that looked like those from the skeletons in my closet
they are other dead friends
though those weren't detrimental, i was merely just a kid
well now you're living a lie, and you're a fraud
i am adult, except if someone were to ask if i would will you to live

Vacation

"How is it without your partner..... 
in crime?




Is it like he's gone on vacation?"

I Have Got All These Things For You

""