By Myself

I love being alone. I love the idea of solitude but even more than that I adore the belief that I am independent, self-sufficient and silently gloat in these redundant notions. I lay in bed and proudly think to myself that I am happy, occupied (possibly even distracted), and completely on my own. I like to think these things and therefore subconsciously manifest them into truths. For as long as I can.

Struggle

"Every relationship is a power struggle."

Damn

Grateful for these lasting people.

Celebrating Life

"ARE THEY ALL DANCING NOW? ARE YOU JOINING THE PARTY?

ARE YOU CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE, JUST BY DESTROYING YOUR BODY?"

Stays

"Think's of baby's name, she wanted to call it Quits."

I told myself I would never bite off more than I could chew
Like you secretly felt some did to you
One hungry mouth to feed, and then came two
They gave the supplies but had no clue what further they could possibly do
But with no utensils, paths will be negatively altered
With little guidance you're more than expected to falter
I didn't make myself
Damage done by a mother and father


"I'ma name him Raymond and raise him,
Like I don't know my own strength."

Life

" You gotta love the lie
You gotta love the lie


Love(love) life (life)
Girls (love)(life)(girls) girls and lies
I can't hear through those veneers
But you keep speaking with those pearly whites
Love the life that you live if it gives love back
You aint gotta stay together for the kids
If you want to disappear don't announce it
Vanish in thin air and bounce quick
Fix the cowlick slick your hair back
Ride the rim bare back you stared at
Lady Godiva might have been an exhibitionist
I'm not here to judge voyeuristic fetishes
If nobody looked it's a closed book
You could put your hang ups on a coat hook
I'm from a puritanical land where they burn witches
I'm the result of a welfare runnin up your sickness
Joy never came Jesus never helped
We were all to blame God beat us with a belt


If I heard your name I'd retreat into myself
I won't hurt your name I'll keep it to myself with


Love (love) life (life)
Love(God) girls and lies
I can't hear through those veneers
But you keep speaking through those pearly whites


No legacy to claim no enemies to squelch
No chemical imbalance that could remedy yourself
Pedestals for the parents medicine is on the shelf
Put the trophy in the spotlight watch as it melts
Metal wouldn't survive plastic is cheaper
Ran into the fire she asked me to leave her
I did what I could with the wood and the flammables
Stood with the good little animals ran with the bulls
Soot on my hands that were full put the good book on the mantle
Burn baby burn you could serve as a candle
Last thing I heard was her on the piano
Last thing I saw was her being her self
By beating her self to see if it could help


If I heard your name I'd retreat into myself
I won't hurt your name I'll keep it to myself with


Love (love) life (life)
Love(God) girls (girls) and lies
I can't hear through those veneers
But you keep speaking through those pearly whites


Love the lie
Love the lie
Love the lie
"

Chloe

"i try to find something i like in everyone, little things"

Apology

"A walking apology .... the opposite of confidence."

Believe

I don't believe in anything.


"You never really have anything; everything can just disappear into thin air."

Not Everything

"everything is not that meloramatic. not everything is chuck palahniuk."

Millions

"Sometimes you think you're doing things badly but you're doing better than millions of people."

"Please spend the night I need you in the morning."

lost it to hip hop
my first boyfriend was straight edge
i fell in love with a mirror but loathed the reflection

Seldom Like

It's seldom that people will utmost desire someone to enjoy the things that they themselves like about themselves. It gets old after mere hours, realizing that they need someone who appreciates and possibly even really loves the things that they loath and despise about themselves. you won't forget those things when someone voices them. someone says your handwriting has "style", someone else tells you that you have a nice ass. when these feelings are true and unfaltering it is then that the other person can feel love, and likely not love themselves, or those attributes of themselves, but i mean, close enough.

Honey

"There was a rat on this show and a rat on the last one.
Everything is connected, Honey, I know you think it's not."

Know Anybody

"You lied to me and— I just… I thought we knew each other and doesn’t anyone know anybody… at all?"

Easy To

"It's easy to cry when you realize that everyone you love will reject you or die."

Some Things

"Somethings are beautiful."

I Get It

"The shoe maker's kid has no shoes."