Insufficient

"Mountains were an insufficient barricade"

Inconsistent Patterns

You hear stories about a person nursing another back to health to have them get up and walk away

"I wondered if I would always find complicated ways to feel sad"

All

 "It's all transference"

Over-Corrected

I suffer to tell you that I love you always

but keep quiet in fear of sounding redundant

years of series of poor choices, passed off as indecision

you are in a mansion on a hill

and I am in the slums, right where I put myself

you think of me in your isolation

I miss you with these friends per comparison

I set measurements, and rules

as you set standards and precedence

none of it matters once I've convinced myself unworthy of your presence

the self destruction

you left me with nothin

making me see again what I truly always was

"a song about a girl ain't really about a girl"

I see you having such an arduous time attempting to connect

we always did have such opposing struggles 

I crawl out of that hole, from rock bottom, stronger, but hesitant and scared

finally able to peer up top, and you are standing right there

you request to see me in the flesh but I've been painfully conscious and pitifully ashamed of this skin

you think perhaps this humiliation and self loathing is a thing you could grasp

but I know that you can't

seems like you'd like to witness my darkness

such starkness, you do not possess the scope

save your breadth

a pathetic empathetic lover 

Deep

 "Life is long and love is deep"

Almost August End