Opened My Window

"To the glorious past,

you've opened my window,

but broken the glass"

The World The Real World

""

I Have Seen

“I have seen the best of you and the worst of you,  

and I choose both.”

"Sometimes I feel you're a million miles away, and sometimes I feel so close to you."

Another Day

Great Love

"Fire and Air. An adventure in the shape of a great love. 

Indeed, next to an Aquarius, your life will be what you have always wanted: a great adventure. Aquarius has a mysterious and unearthly Air, and, at the same time, a sharp, analytical mind. I bet you fell in love at first sight with such a combination of qualities an Aries can appreciate so well! 

Deep down, you are a rebel, and so is Aquarius. You can do everything you want together - a better world, a good business, a happy family. Aquarius's role on Earth is to see the flaws of the society, to make a better world - yes, Aquarius really believes that, and she will always try to help many people. 

Neither Aries nor Aquarius are crazy about social status, so you will be willing to take risks together. You are both future-oriented, so you speak the same language - even the same dialect, because you have a special gift of communicating almost intuitively. 

Aries wants to be the boss, and Aquarius does not care, she wants to be free to carry through his/her projects. To both of you, absence leads to presence, so you will respect each other's need of freedom and sometimes of loneliness.

Just like you, Aquarius doesn't think a marriage is based on the merging of personalities, but rather on the union between two different entities, so Aquarius will not suffocate your spirit. But Aquarius is much more flexible than Aries, so pay attention: if something seems vitally important to him/her, she won't give in, she will be very firm about it. 

The beginning is a little difficult with an Aquarius, who is very friendly and charming in the society, but who opens up slowly in personal relationships. But I doubt that this will be an obstacle for a real Aries, that is an impetuous sign."

Normalcy

fuck you, fuck your normalcy
fuck your terms
fuck your fakeness
i don't want it any more
maybe i grew out of you
did you ever think of that?
did you ever think i am happier than you are?
it's not a compition
this is real life
and maybe you make me forget that
but i don't want what you are any more
i like my life
i like my people
i like what's real
fuck your terms
i want to grow

“I left you because I knew I could never change you. You would stand in the room so still sometimes, 
as if the greatest betrayal of yourself would be to reveal one more inch of your character.”

Only Once You Realize This Do You Become Free

"My ears hear what others cannot hear; small faraway things people cannot normally see are visible to me. These senses are the fruits of a lifetime of longing, longing to be rescued, to be completed. Just as the skirt needs the wind to billow, I'm not formed by things that are of myself alone. I wear my father's belt tied around my mother's blouse, and shoes which are from my uncle. This is me. Just as a flower does not choose its color, we are not responsible for what we have come to be."

Miss Your Thoughts Daily

"I ride your fears as they build and I am strong in these illusions. 
I say we share this space, I ask that we share this creation. You're thoughts are flooding, and I fear where they're headed. In this place I will stay, though I am stirred by your spiral. Obsession is protection, and I won't leave my castle."

When It Rains It Pours

I didn't believe in karma until Scott got his car stolen. I didn't believe in death until I watched that dog die the way that it did. I got hit on the freeway, I got hit in front of my house. I didn't believe in bed bugs, fleas, or scabies. I un-bottled my rage, uncaged my truths. I fumble and struggle through work, monday through friday. I did not know that strange sort of fear, calling 911, hearing all that glass break, and worse, hearing her on the phone crying that hard. Didn't know I would be getting a call from my brother in the grocery store, telling me quietly that he had crashed his car. Been to the hospital more times than the airport. Forgot I could be worth anything until you called and came over that defeated. Having him overhear me say what I did. All the tragedy we felt here, that lingered. Even those little things, ripped off car parts, broken wrists. Everyone feeling a million miles away, no matter how close. Tricking myself into not needing school, or privacy.

Something made this better than before.

Strength

"Their largest strength is often times also the chink in the armor."

don't you miss mulling over every painful memory passed

don't you miss being glorified then ignored

do you miss the sleepless nights

keeping each other awake

not speaking until dawn

do you miss how lost I'd get

just trying  to find you

(take that as you will)

dont you miss actions done solely with the intent of getting a reaction
sometimes even from you

don't you miss me

Once Removed

 you attract catastrophe

 what does that say about me

 once removed trauma

Mountains

I would do anything for the words of yours that I have lost

I feel as though I could move mountains for that feeling left within you, that I belong

Exhaust Resources

I cannot tell 

if it is more human instinct

to take every single thing you can from another person

or give them everything you have

  All I ask is that everything works out.