Slightly

I fall completely in love with anything slightly nostalgic.

Happy and Lucky

"I'm happy and lucky 
but I've never told anyone"

Climbing Every Mountain

"People just can't stand not knowing something, she tells me. Especially men can't bear not climbing every mountain, mapping everywhere. Labeling everything. Peeing on every tree and then not calling you back."
"Behind a veil, you're the great unknown," she says. "Most guys will deny you're a real person, and some will just ignore you.""

""The most boring thing in the entire world," Brandy says "is nudity." The second most boring thing, she says, is honesty."
"The third most boring thing in the entire world is your sorry-assed past."

I Want to Be

Remembered for what I created.


"We'll be remembered more for what we destroy than what we create."

Book

Maybe a chapter for every year, maybe a chapter for every person. All I know is that my memory isn't getting any better, memories any more clear. Maybe first I should decide which is more important; the time or the people consuming it. Well, I would have about nineteen of both.

You cannot find the right time to read nor write a book, there is never a good time. I do not set goals for myself though and this is one of the few.

Big Light

"She just sits by a big flourescent light?"

This Is

"ya i am too. and i'm coming next month somehow, like i'm not gonna go a month without seeing you. goodnight"

Opening

""Santa Claus is just a story," says Seth.
"He's just the opening band to God. There is no Santa Claus.""

Everything Was

Everything was really good, and I think what happened was I started to believe that I deserved that.

Making Things

Good Decisions

Make good decisions- 

If not for me, then for yourself. 

And if not for yourself, for me.

Ninety

FWD: 90% of the time i smile at you is to see if you'll smile back cuz i love it when you do

Still

"Great, my bed's uncomfortable AND I'm a bad driver..." 

"Yeah but I still sleep in your bed and drive with you."

Change A Thing

I don't trust anyone who says they wouldn't change a thing; or wouldn't go back even once.

Coincidence

"Well, you know, I guess it's 'cause I was sitting in a deli and reading Dorian Gray and a guy comes up to me and asks me about it and... now he's my husband."
"Yeah. And... so?"
"So, what if I'd gone to the movies? What if I had gone somewhere else for lunch? What if I'd gotten there 10 minutes later? It was - it was meant to be."


Last night I found out that I would have never met my boyfriend if a man I have never met, in a town I've never been to, hadn't of molested kids. Not that my boyfriend has met him either, it just began an odd chain of events that lead our situation to begin. Thinking about the domino effect in life, and stories such as this, is equally hopeful and discouraging. As many scenarios such as this that are positive or considered "fate" there are at least as many connections that did not occur and mishaps that did. I don't believe in anything any more.

"Why if God is good, is there evil in the world? He replied, "To thicken the plot.""

Princess

All

"Cuddling is Compliments"

Closer To You

Stéphanie: You have a serious problem of distorting reality. You could sleep with the entire planet and still feel rejected. 






Stephane: You know, sometimes I wear my jeans for more than a week until they're really bad. And it makes me feel closer to you.

Vulnerable

"vulnerable"
"that wasn't the word i was looking for"
"that was the word i was looking for"

Product

Every once in a while I forget that I am a product of my environment, and then I remember again.

I've Been Thinking

How no matter what, we go back to what is familiar.

Soon After

i'm sitting in the car, there is always this time, when i realize the moment i am in is fleeting. whether this is a good or bad thing, it's coming to an end and i begin to grasp that. i reflect briefly upon my past week, falling off the earth, kissing, rubbing, sleeping, not. the next day will be void of all these things, it will be empty like before, like it never existed in the first place. i will be alone. every social interaction will be responded to, and how much effort i will make, towards anything, will be determined. in this moment i had everything, my distraction. something i could put all my energy and thoughts and time into until it goes away again, willing or not. i try to focus on the points i'd like to remember, the rusty smell, teeth, a beating chest, the little things i couldn't find the right words to thank you for. being in the moment, but clearly, not always.

Talk

I'd rather be hated for things i have not said rather than things i have.

Reply

What do I say? I won't respond because I don't know whether or not to believe you, about there being a skunk under the house. At this point I can honestly say that it is not fair for me to be lied to, even if it is regarding rodents. I was going to introduce you, but the fumes maybe would get to everyone's heads. Actually, maybe they already have.