Tiny Hearthrob

obsessed with your body language, impossible to misread


I have enough pills in my hand to never feel sad again
but not tonight

Fake Bath

SOS

after we had sex he told me that he has a girlfriend

before we had sex he told me he has poison oak

he said it's difficult for him to want to sleep with those kind of men because they are pompous and crass, misogynistic 

he said he hated this about himself 

Sitting in the Shower

I am going to write a book called sitting in the shower

It will be as depressing and eating dessert alone in bed

or drinking water from the tap 

we dance to my beat of a dead horse

disparages

marriages

noncommittal with an aversion

to such a perversion 

non-persuasive

invasive

I want space if

we can still be as close as two humans can possibly be

I want to love you so incredibly deeply

but only barely more than you love me

Derailed

    it always feels like my eyes are bleeding

     it always feels like you're leaving

      feels like I need help 

       feels like I am not smart enough

         to solve my biggest problem which is myself

Choke

I wanna scream and weep like a child

I want to be petty and I want my saliva to be so thick that I choke on it

but do not stop yelling in your face

because you are being a fucking bitch

and I am going to wait it out because that is what friendship is

"stop looking at me with those eyes 

like I could disappear and you wouldn't care why 

now I'm fucked up"

Hi

is this toxic?

do I make you feel guilty for what you've become? Like no one else could?

is this immortal?
do I dare waste my precious time?

is this safe?

are you there for me like you were when we were fifteen?

you taught me how you used my chapstick as a fist pack

but ended up hurting me the very very most