Downfall of the Day

I give in too easily. I'll take anyone back in my life if they liked me enough to miss me when they were out of it. I don't stick to my plan, I don't stick to my word. I'm too forgiving, and give far too many chances. I make stories and excuses for people who don't deserve them, and waste my time. It looks, and feels bad. No matter what people have said or done to me I will accept them back because of my life self-esteem. I have these high hopes that people will change and be different this time, they never are and it is a complete waste of time.

I've Come to Realize

you hear what you want to hear 

you see what you want to see

Difficult

V: "You are difficult to be friends with.

It's not your personality, at all, you're just really different"

M: "I think of situations in a really weird way"

V: "Yeah"

Sage Francis

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How do you know when you're 'in love'?

"You dread doing anything without them in your life."

-Frankie Thomas
5.30.09


"when you look into their eyes and hear the beatles"

-Denique Plummer

5.30.09

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"so wtf

damnit mollie

you make me think

like too deep about myself

or seomthing

i ask to many questions

well it confues me

i feel like i deserve less

but if you think abotuit

i dont really have a whole lot of anthing..

i guess

but its like being in limbo for life

i feel like your mine in a way

but i can never have you

like winning an emmy

you get to holdit on stage breifely

then they strip you from it

and tell you you might get it in the mail one day

yeah but its like

a ghost relationship

and i dont want that

i wanna hold you

and cuddle

and like talk to you in person

and like be around you"

"i miss you like WHOA mollies

on the really real

i tihnk about you liek

all day

every day

yesh

i miss youso bad

i wihs i could like

be with you everyday

and never miss a day

i would"

"i feel like werwe growing apart

and now

it like

we wer never growing together in the first place

so its a falling out

kind of

and idont want that

cau sei love you mollie

do u know what i mena?

yeah, but its like, i'm just doing what youre doing. nothing else

wtf

fine

make it complicated"

"you like

kind of

led me to belive all these things

that enver happened

youra heartbreaker mollie

and i love it

dont think to much about it"

"like

hang out more

cause i really reall yreally relaly erlallaelraelrelarelralrelarlaelalylyelalyelaralylerlaylealrlaylealer realy really REALLY like you"

"it just seemed like you made a n effort for everyone in the world but me

i think from my (and other peoples) you could have tryed harder to do more

you just kind of like

fall into order of wahts happening

and like ah dunno like

ok well im not gunna get into it

then but w.e

you dont waht you have to do

figure it all out

then ill be here

just doing whatever im doing

itll all work out"

"ill show you a bad time"

"ok then mollie

whatever then

i guess well never figure it out

well i'll tell you anything you would like to know

id like to know why you were so fuckin mean to me

ive never seriously been mean to you on purpose

i love you liek

you could never even imagine

and you like

broke my heart"

"i rember you saying forget me

wheres that

i never told you i dont wanna talk to you again

yes you did

well what about the

forgetting about you part

i know

maybe it was myspace

i know you told me

some fucked up shit

oh and all the things you said werent

you hurt my feelings too you know

ok

i told you

im sorry

you were beig so mean

i was like crying all day

wtf

im moving to the bay

maybe

but not anytime soon

ok well

not like i wouldnt drive from wherever i was at

to meet you and hang out

ok

well

you should know these things

well i love you and i always will mollies

your ma-mollies

yessum

most of my fave tiems

are of just beign with you"

"mollie

i loves you

more than any other girl ive ever met

for seriously

just

no matter what happens

i just want you to know that

i would drop evrything for you

if you wanted

just

keep that in mind"

"if you could ask me anything ever. or tell me anything. or everything. or just something. what would it be?

i love you with all my heart"

"when pareents out of tonw

we can >?

wear are shoes on the carpet"

"DAMNTI MOLLIES

im goignthere

i rally wanna c u

daugther

ok

wll ill cal lyou int eh morning"

"ok your like the sweetest girl ever

eVEEREVEREVER

nononnono

yesyeyseyseys

ytes

io tihnk your like

the softest

cutest

EVER

EVEREVER

LIKE

TEDDY BEARS"

"i guess

gosh

i cant get over like

how much i love you

everything you say i just wanna say

i lvoe you

as my reply"

"im gunna cal you

liek as soon as i wake up in th moring

like first secon my eyes open"

"it sok

your over it

im over nothgin ever

no one cares"

"your the only gurl whos ever like really mentally chewed me up and

spit me out

liek seriously"

"i wihs i could do it all over again

and watch every hand gesture i make

in order for it all to work out"

"i woudl do anything for it all back

hangign out

at all

pictures together

holding hands

hugging

sitting aroudn doing nothing at al

just as long as were together

ive always had feeling for you

and every song ive ever listened to

seemed liek

it was written for us

and just everything

i know i probably fucked up

somewher alogn the line"

"all io know

is that il always love you mollies

and thats the just of waht i want to relay to you

in this conversation

if i can acomplish nothing else

i just want you to know

i love you"

"i rmembver that

night in the forest

i aske dyou out

and i was drunk

and thne

somone said something dumb

about askign you when im sober

so i got mad

and broke that bottle

and got into a fight

with myself

mostly

i remember too

that pissed me off

cause its no places for somone else to say something reguarding a

situation that no one understands is mainly why i was so upset

about it all

but i was serious

about dating you

well

i dont joke around about shit like that

i dont EVER ask girls out

EVER

and whne i do im VERY serious

evne if it seems like im joking

thats on problem i have

everyone always thinks im kiddign

im VERY serious

about everything"

"i miss you

in everyway

i felt like out of every girl ive ever met

you were the martest

or had the capacity to understnad me

or seomthing

the most open

to things i wanted to show you

and thats most important for me"

"wel

your young

you dotn really know what your doing

but im yougn to

i dotn know waht im doing

no one really know swhat theyre doing"

"your cool

funny

i love your sence of humor

and style and

your pretty and

like wahtever

but i know how you are"

"so when i scrath my nails down someon else back i hope you fee it"

"we never talk like

something serious happenede or soemtihng

it slike intense for me

cause i feel like ive destroyed the only good influence in my life

i quit smoking

and i quit drinking all for you

cause you were a GOOD influence in my life

and i need that

but i cant

you like hat eme

i tihnk your freinds have something ot do with it

your to much of a conformist"

"i must admit the usual

love confession of the month

ill skip the bullsit"

"i dunno if imgunna like

waste my time in trying to do tis again

and like hurt myself

cause its not like your the only one who gets hurt"

"i only need to be your freind

i just want any sort of relationship with you

what would be ideal for you though?

honestly

yeah, just so i know. i'm sick of guessing..

i would probably make moderately sweet love to you for a couple hours

and call you everyday"

"hah yes

your hands ar amazing

and lke perfect

you could model watches"

"ah dunno everytime it seems like

im doing somethign wrong to offend or hurt you

and that never what i wanted

your the only girl ive not attained in a sence you know

your the only obstacle i never overcame

you know

im the kind of get what i want person

and you proved me wrong

in my whooe like world

its shocking

in a way

your like

just amazing

in everyway"

"i feel like your one step ahead of me at all times

and therer nothing i can do about it"

"you dont love me like i love you

i would date you in a minute

and love you

unconditionaly"

"ill never stop loving you

i only wanna be with you as crazy as it might sound

your like my girl in a way

the one who can tame me

the only one who has"

"think about me befor bed"

"i fall asleep to you

and wake up to you"