"No one can take you away from me"

Stale Green Lights

i get low key upset that he is in a patch of wildflowers on a mountain trail with his dainty girlfriend
(in our depression fueled laziness) you and i only leave the bed for work or a good meal
then i realize that i would rather sleep next to you any time of day than hike a fucking mountain

my plants live off of peach pear la croix dregs and i'm convinced they flourish because of or in spite of it
i am broke, but not broke enough to drink still water

my roommate is so quiet i am convinced she believes rent is only due if you make enough noise

of all the things lost on you, i think everything good about myself is what i miss the most

i had a dream last night that i fell asleep, and had a dream that you were in

and we gently waved at each other from a distance
when i woke up (in my dream) i got dressed in a foreign room and went to find you
to ask you if you were asleep exactly two hours ago, 7:22am, and if we had waved at least each other in your dream, too

my life lately resembles the spongebob episode where mr krabs gets coral squeaky boots for her birthday

no disrespect meant to ru paul, but you CAN truly love someone without being even close to loving yourself, and I have proof

remember, god is as real as anything else

taylor swift voted for donald trump 2016

 I found out the real meaning of contingency

The Fictional Pain

"Palm 
To notice your palm in your dream represents your generosity and openness, especially if they are open. You are always willing to help others. If you dream that your palm is closed, then it means that there is something that you are trying to hide or shield.

Bloody Hands 
To see blood on your hands signifies that you are experiencing some sort of guilt."

Same

my cat slowly and repetitively claws at the walls of the litter box he is contained in like silently proclaiming LOOK AT ME, GET ME OUT OF THIS TINY SHITHOLE

Poem First Draft

do you think plants are more fun if they live off of the dregs of peach pear la croix?

because I am poor, but not poor enough to drink still water

do you think my cat likes me? or really likes me?

because we sleep together but he never, ever comes when I call

50 cent's get rich or die tryin reminds me of my childhood, and I deeply resonated with each lyrics, even as a 13 year old middle class white kid

i work too damn hard to be this dependent on my change jar,

and have the audacity to complain about this even whilst i gentrify

people named shelby are objectively personality-less

god is as real as anything else

taylor swift voted for trump

Therapy

    Did you tell your therapist about me?

    Does she know that I am weak? Does she know how I am stupid?

     Does she know I can't sleep

we said we were sorry

  In my dream he told me that he did not know what I was feeling. For the first time in my life i responded that I did not know either.