"change is gonna come and when it does we'll be here for it"

The Only One That Even Matters

"If I had tried to make you mine

you would have walked away

life can't compete with memories

that never have to change

this world is full of missing persons

all of these unsolved mysteries

if someone says they know for certain

they are selling something certainly

so when I set myself to wonder

on all the questions that remain

the only one that even matters

is when I'll see your face again

I keep looking back for artifacts

to prove that you were here

a sound that has been keeps echoing

it never disappears"

 we've been here before
 which is to say we will be here again

Image I Create

"when I need to wipe my face I use the back of my hand.
and I like to take up space just because I can.
and I use my dress to wipe up my drink.
and you know I care less & less what people think.
and you are so lame. You know you always disappoint me.
it's kinda like our running joke & it's really not funny.
I just want you to live up to the image of you I create.
I see you & I'm so unsatisfied."

Jae is in new york. I'm in bed. my pillow mostly covers the blood. there's fight in his blood, and blood from his fight.
he's so soft, so tender. in each and every way.

financial ruin seems to be going well