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you hold me like a seatbelt

play me halsey and lana del rey

we talk like babies whenever we feel like babies which is a lot of the time

you clean the dishes I feed the cat

we hold hands when we sleep

you open all the blinds turn on all the lights

I close everything down for the night

you draw the bath, froth my milk

I water the plants, cut the grass

we laugh and laugh because we are laughing 

we feed food into each other’s mouths at dinner like those couples do

and even make us hate ourselves 

a little bit less

 I love him so much

I started to cry

I’m not sure if you saw

I wiped away my tears very quickly

for so many reasons 

Bruises last longer than kisses

They’ll be a purple dotted line of your teeth still on my neck when you’re sent away
I’ll sleep alone then
But hopefully sleep
Everything reminds me that bruises last longer than kisses
Im always getting so confused between loving and missing
The longing it twists all the memories and I’ve only ever known one person 
You’re all the same with the leaving and never going
Never fucking speaking and always fucking knowing
You’re just like me and that’s really the only reason I hate you so much
Could healing be harder than this?

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Something about hyperventilating in a kn95 mask

“Let’s not rush out and tell everybody”