Vacation

It's June 30th, 2015. I am happy, really happy. It's warm, warm enough that my sweat doesn't quite dry, all over my entire body, and I do not care. I text Lizz that I'm happy, but her response does not determine whether or not I actually am. I eat trader joes Caesar salad, then cook an Italian sausage over the fire. Leo sits on my lap, I drink beer almost as a joke. Ryan is in the kitchen right now cooking hamburger sliders. My boss emails me, says he wishes I could take two weeks off. This is my real life, nothing else is.

Never Alone

Something feels much different about this trip, the potential for longevity, not that it's sustainable in the sense that I COULD stay here, but rather that I would want to. I use different shampoo every other day, I swim, I fall asleep early on the couch, I eat calamari and drink bourbon around lunch time. Losing yourself takes only a moment, after years and years creating and curating, meticulously. Nobody calls me, I'm busy, never in bed, no computer. I am asleep more than I am sad, I eat ice cream cones more than I am sad, I smile more than I am sad. Perhaps I wasn't meant to be established, I am a wanderer, a dawdler, I roam where I please, speak quiet, laugh loudly. I forgot work, I forgot people, I forgot home.

I Decline

"I decree a stalemate

I divine my deeper motives

I recognise the weapons

I've practised them well

I fitted them myself"

Daily Food pt. 2

breakfast-

large cranberry juice

half a breakfast burrito with beans and eggs with ketchup 

a veggie sausage link

half a blueberry muffin

lunch-

coconut water

yogurt pretzels

dinner-

breakfast-

iced coffee with vanilla and cream

whole wheat saltines

lunch-

a few chicken pot stickers with sauce 

unsweetened green tea

strawberries 

yellow cherry tomatoes

whole wheat saltines with cheese 

dinner-

two coconut shrimp rolls

a fruit cocktail drink

a calamari roll with slaw and aoli

a fruit cocktail

a lemon square

golden grahams

breakfast-

Take a hike trail mix

Large (starbucks) iced green tea

Lunch-

Chips with guacamole and salsa

a tostada with beans, rice, lettuce cheese, and guacamole on a corn tortilla

A bean burrito with rice, salsa, and guacamole 

Unsweetened iced tea

Dinner-

half a bag of peanut m&ms

Yerba mate enlighten mint iced tea

Half a beer

Half a piece of pizza

7/28

breakfast-

starbucks iced coffee with coconut milk 

starbucks flat white with soy milk

lunch-

vegan Mexican Cobb salad

vegan cole slaw with veggies

snack-

green drink

vegan oatmeal cookie sandwich 

dinner- 

cucumber salad 

chicken

mixed vegetables 

cranberry kombucha 

moscow mule

7/27

breakfast- 

half a coconut water

two cornbread muffins

coffee with almond milk and half and half

lunch-

plain Yogurt with honey and cantaloupe 

An egg on a half piece of toast with butter and seasonings

Snack-

Yogurt pretzels

Dinner-

Chicken salad with cheese, fruit, seeds, and nuts

Three pieces of small buttered toast

Three pieces of sees chocolate truffles with almonds

7/28

Breakfast-

Coffee with almond milk

Crab cake with aoli and greens 

Vegetable hash with two poached eggs with ketchup 

Ginger peach spritzer

Lunch-

Calamari with spicy ranch

Mint julep

Grapefruit margarita 

Dinner-

Iced tea

Vegetable ramen

7/29

Breakfast-

Green tea

Two figs

Vegetable frittata 

Mashed potatoes with mushroom gravy

Peach salad

Chai tea 

Cranberry walnut biscotti

Lunch-

Coffee 

Dried papaya 

Dinner-

Rosemary bread with goat cheese

Mixed greens with beets, radishes, sunflower seeds, avocado 

Yerba mate enlightenment iced tea

Wine

Half a Tahoe cookie with white chocolate macadamia nut 

7/30

breakfast-

two mini fruit scones

coffee with almond milk

lunch-

Vegan horchata

Vegan porridge with nuts and blueberry rhubarb jam

Toast with apricot jam

Dinner-

Salt and vinegar chips

Grapefruit mimosa with strawberries

Cesar salad with croutons chicken and cheese

A chicken Italian sausage 

7/31

Breakfast-

Espresso with unsweetened almond milk , agave and half and half

Scramble with red bell pepper, shallots, and mushrooms with a corn tortilla with butter

Yogurt with strawberries and cantaloupe 

Lunch-

A Rice Krispie treat

Dinner-
three fresh rolls with sauce
cucumber mint martini
tom kha with chicken
chocolate martini
creme brule

8/1
breakfast-
iced coffee with soy milk
bran muffin with raisins
mixed greens with blue cheese, cherry tomatoes and balsamic vinaigrette
lunch-
half a beer
dinner-
raspberry coconut yogurt with a banana
watermelon
apple with almond butter
wheat saltines

8/2
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk
apple with almond butter
eggs with pesto
lunch-
popcorn
a few junior mints
dinner-
lime margarita
tortilla chips with salsa and guacamole
salad with tortilla strips, avocado,
junior mints

8/3
breakfast-
iced coffee with almond milk and flan syrup
egg salad
coconut water
snack-
red cherries
lunch-
coconut water
(safeway) thai chicken salad
dinner-
veggie fresh roll
a little thai noodles
two alphahoras
cinnamon almond milk horchata
wine

8/4
breakfast-
iced coffee with almond milk and flan syrup
lemon yerba mate iced tea
two hard-boiled eggs with salt and pepper
lunch-
yam craisin salad
take a hike trail mix
cranberry kombucha
dinner-
a beer
a vegan hot dog with saurkraut, ketchup, mustard on a bun
mixed greens with red peppers, walnuts, and blue cheese
baked beans
chocolate ice cream with a cone

8/5
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
yogurt with banana and cinnamon
snack-
sun chips
multi-greens kombucha
lunch-
(trader joe's) quinoa burrito
three ants on a log
dinner-
yogurt with figs and honey
whole wheat saltines

8/6
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
apple with almond butter
coconut water
snack-
beet chips
lunch-
(safeway) asian chicken salad
dried coconut strips
dinner-
an avocado fresh roll with peanut sauce
tom kha soup with chicken, mushrooms and coconut
an avocado fresh roll with peanut sauce
goat yogurt with sunrise raspberries, cinnamon and chia seeds

8/7
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
(starbucks) bistro box
small sweet peach green tea
lunch-
(trader joe's) thai noodle salad
carrot juice
dinner-
a few french fries
southwest chicken salad with asian dressing
madre cocktail

8/8
breakfast-
iced coffee with rice milk and vanilla
citrus bran muffin
lunch-
coffee
rose mimosa
carrot slaw
gingered greens
vegan biscuit and gravy
dinner-
grilled zucchini, asparagus, and broccoli with oil and seasonings
grilled veggie patty with sriracha
raw cacao coconut ball
bing cherry, green tea and mint chip ice cream with a waffle cone
vegan chocolate mousse ice cream with a sugar cone

8/9
breakfast-
coffee
grapefruit mimosa
two pieces of rye toast with butter and jam
portobello scramble
potatoes with ketchup
ollaberry muffin
grapefruit mimosa
lunch-
two grapefruit mimosas

8/10
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
apple with almond butter
eggs with butter and seasonings
peanut butter carob chip perfect bar
lunch-
saltines
half of a trilogy kombucha
dinner-
seaweed salad
(berkeley bowl) avocado fresh rolls
peach yogurt

8/11
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
watermelon
lunch-
curry chicken salad
yogurt with blueberries and cinnamon
coconut water
dinner-
apple sweet potato soup

8/12
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
watermelon
yogurt with nectarine, cinnamon and honey
saltines
lunch-
a blood orange
a little curry chicken salad
(safeway) asian chicken salad
dinner-
sushi burrito
a beer

8/13
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk cinnamon horchata
(starbucks) bistro box
yogurt with banana and cinnamon
lunch-



saltines
dinner-
half a salmon burger sandwich with pesto, avocado and sprouts
grilled mixed vegetables with oil and seasonings
butter lettuce salad with plutos, avocado and sprouts
grilled pineapple
half a beer

8/14
breakfast-
(starbucks) green tea half as sweet
(starbucks) pesto feta egg white wrap on wheat tortilla
figs
a mini fignuten
lunch-
snap peas
two mini almond biscotti

dinner-


8/17
breakfast-
coffee with vanilla help milk
a hard-boiled egg

lunch-
apple with honey goat cheese
saltines
dinner-
apple sweet potato soup
goat yogurt with cantaloupe

8/18
breakfast-
coffee with almond milk horchata
gassenhauser on wheat bread with butter and seasonings
ginger turmeric tonic
half a bran muffin
lunch-
(safeway) chinese chicken salad
half a chocolate chip muffin
dinner-
half a golden beet, almond and parmesan cheese arugula salad
a piece and a half of veggie pizza with mushrooms, kale, and peppers
half a beer
junior mints

8/19
breakfast-
iced coffee with almond milk horchata
(starbucks) iced green tea
half a (starbucks) egg salad with arugula on wheat bread
grapes
snack-
apple with almond butter
raisin bran
lunch-
grapes
dinner-
(trader joe's) five spice noodle salad
half a beer

8/20
breakfast-
a little iced coffee with almond milk horchata
yogurt with banana, cinnamon, and chia seeds
saltines
lunch-
enlightenment yerba mate iced tea
(starbucks) brown rice and beet salad
saltines
dinner-
(berkeley bowl) avocado fresh rolls with sweet chile sauce
raisin bran with almond milk, blueberries, and blackberries

8/21
breakfast-
coffee with vanilla hemp milk
(trader joe's) quinoa sweet potato burrito
part of a raisin bran muffin
(starbucks) sweetened iced coffee with milk
lunch-
saltines
(berkeley bowl) salad
oreo mcflurry
dinner-

8/22

8/23
breakfast-
coffee with vanilla hemp milk
coffee
5oz grapefruit juice
scramble with veggies and veggie sausage with ketcup
potatoes
lunch-
vegan plum gelato
dinner-
most of a beer
a piece of mushroom and dino kale pizza
nerds
a coconut nutmeg cocktail
a macadamia nut chi-chi
a few chips

8/23
breakfast-
iced coffee with vanilla hemp milk
(starbucks) green tea with two pumps sweetener
(starbucks) bistro box
cranberry kombucha
lunch-
dinner-

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