I laid in bed
crushed
my spine
I let you take your time
some have to catch up
I’m so advanced
or so I thought staring nervously
at my hands
so you ran
and I thought it was me, but knew it was you
we became unglued
just a sticky mess
you collected your objects and left all your things
I try to close my eyes
I try not to wait for the phone to ring
there was nothing left to say
I had a feeling if I touched you we would be okay
but you kept your distance and I kept my pride
my anxious stressed body
your bottles and your line, I waited at the end of
I don’t know where you go
but am here when you return
so selfless
in craving happiness
though none of your concern

“I long for your touch, but won’t ask too much”

March 30

Overheard at a bar, “The things you showed me still make me sick”

he said I can’t even pretend I’m not going to do every little thing you ask of me

we ignore the big things

he is the elephant in the room

Scope

you said in the car that scientifically people have a more extensive range of happiness,
while other's cap at a lower level than some are able to achieve

this means, scientifically, some will find themselves much sadder than another could ever experience

these select humans, if astute, may find each other

——

Mouth

there are flavors that haunt us, sicken
just the thought makes me shudder

you can’t eat chocolate anymore

I still wonder the aftertaste
of just one

I am alien now

never quite at home
look at my fingers

this isn't a cry for help
I would have cried already
and already
and already

did you delete my number
do you ever seek photos of my face

I am an alien now
without you

I am an alien
I am frightened

do you remember
when this was requited

I Dreamed

 ”I dreamed you dreamed of me”