I laid in bed
crushed
my spine
I let you take your time
some have to catch up
I’m so advanced
or so I thought staring nervously
at my hands
so you ran
and I thought it was me, but knew it was you
we became unglued
just a sticky mess
you collected your objects and left all your things
I try to close my eyes
I try not to wait for the phone to ring
there was nothing left to say
I had a feeling if I touched you we would be okay
but you kept your distance and I kept my pride
my anxious stressed body
your bottles and your line, I waited at the end of
I don’t know where you go
but am here when you return
so selfless
in craving happiness
though none of your concern