That I Didn't Try

"reading your note, over again, there's not a word, I comprehend, except where you signed it 'I will love you always, and forever'"

I don't know why things can't go the way they do in my head.

I like to think I am a perfectly reasonable human being, with sensible and realistic thoughts about my life (and how it could play out), but somehow everything goes awry. And somehow at the same time as all this I blame myself.

"Oh, I tried. You have no idea how hard I tried...

None of it made a difference to you. And I couldn't drown with you anymore.

Don't you dare sit there and tell me that I didn't try.

I did.

You were just too stupid to notice."