It's Fine

i love you so much i bite my tongue till it bleeds, i love you so much i clench my stomach till it heaves. i love you so much i reach for you nightly in my sleep, i love you so. i love you so much it drives me insane, i love you so much i can no longer speak your name. i miss your teeth, i miss your veins, i miss whimper, i miss your whisper, you are as hot as summer, as cold as the right side of my bed. i love you so much i look for you in the street, or when my phone buzzes, i look for you in me, and my future-husbands. i love you so much i nearly burst at the seams, i love you so much i forgot what anything else means, i love you so much it makes me clean, i love you so much i cry and i scream, i laugh and i beam, i miss your dark freckles and your light hair, i love you so much that no one else compares, i love you so much this could never end, i love you so, my best friend.