the butterflies i believed were long gone

the butterflies I thought had long died

had really just learned how to hide

and as the years passed

like us, they found their way to last

and when I saw you again they returned with a vengeance 

I accepted the feeling and I made my penance 

you asked if anything is new

and we pretended, as we do

that I could have been doing anything but waiting for you

this will be unwavering and uneasy
cause with you i'll say anything, and you'll take it with stride
and never, ever walk away from me

   "Inside you is a part of me that aches"


I saw you.

Bad Mouth

i talk hella shit because i can't imagine a world in which you're living without needing me to do so
i talk hella shit knowing you're wearing a plain white shirt to the bar and i won't get to compliment you on that
i talk hella shit with the thought of your dog getting more excited about other girls walking up your steps
i talk hella shit because i miss your bed on the floor and how we'd carry home chairs from the sidewalks
i talk hella shit on you and how loudly and arrogant you tell stories, that i do not know the ending, similar to but not ours

you insensitive fucking asshole,

you can't feel nothing forever,

trust me

"My friend implores me " for one time only,

make an exception." I am not not worried

Wrap her up in a package of lies

Send her off to a coconut island

I am not worried - I am not overly concerned

with the status of my emotions

"oh", She says, "you're changing."

But were always changing

It does not bother me to say this isn't love

Because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love

and I guess I'm going to have to live that

but, I'm sure there's something in a shade of gray

or something in between

and I can always change my name if that's what you mean

My friend assures me "it's all or nothing`

But I am not really worried

I am not overly concerned

You try to tell your self the things you try tell your self to make

yourself forget

to make your self forget

I am not worried

"If it's love" she said, "then were gonna have to think about the

consequences"

She can't stop shaking and I can t stop touching her and.....

This time when kindness falls like rain

It washes her away"

Tiny Little Gift to Me

"I want to give you what you give to me 

and every breath that is in your lungs 

is a tiny little gift to me"

Just Calling

     "I WAS JUST CALLING 

     TO SEE IF YOU WERE ALONE

     LIKE ME"

End of Aug