Some Shit Writing

she said i can't read your writing
it makes me feel too sad
she said it two more times
incase the first and second didn't hurt so bad
she wants to be by my side forever
but is just trying to be happy, finally, for once her life
you depress me, please, do not send me everything that you write
she was right
and maybe i was on some manipulative bullshit
some push pull shit
i'm the culprit
dragging you down the dark spiral i tend to live in
i send you a poem, like come'on where have you been?
but you deserve rainbows, and flowers, and all things nice
it took years to understand why misery wouldn't suffice
if i could be next to you, i would give anything, i would change
a pleasant exchange
i won't remind you i'm downtrodden, i'm broken
our conversations don't have to be depressing, terse, or token
i promise i want what you want
i promise i always will
i won't say a word but entrust in our love, still
cause you're my favorite
i won't type a letter, i won't speak a word, it will stay in the past, where i'll save it
and if you want to be happy
i will not get sappy
i don't have to spell out every feeling so scared
because i love you, i'm happy
because you are my favorite