I'm Sorry

i was never trying to ensue worry and disgust

i would simply like to talk, more-so throughly discuss

i can hear the voices and sounds as if they were on the other side of the door

i thought i was kind to adore

to you, adoration became a bore

but if i could only speak to you like i did before

in the present i am feeling like more than a chore

a pain in the ass, this painstaking task

taking the time out to nurse my wounds you can't even see

didn't have the guts to say that you could not stomach them or me

i watched your animosity

so deep seeded, until it bloomed, like a tree

spread roots like disease

unforgiving, no please

no sorry, no plead

but just know i remain scorn from this

so petty, like sibling rivalry

remember how you used to cry? like me

fall asleep, lying next to me

now too apathetic to even lie through your teeth

i used to believe something was brooding

while you were out at sea

now i feel the waves, weak, 

they washed up your apathy

but i know deep down somewhere, you are mad at me

grace myself with your weather like some noble deed

i suppose you knew, it was something i would need

unlike you, starving yourself, i got fat off the lies you would feed

but i'm not here to call you out, give yourself a bad name

but would you understand if i told you that if i were dealing with myself 

i'd do the exact same