Trying To Do Homework

But really trying to break it down. Did I mourn because I simply desired something to mourn over? Or did I desire to have something to mourn over because I relished in mourning this? Did I wish to be happy, and not want to mourn this at all? Or was happiness too simple, and easy? Had I been mourning to avoid such trite contentment? Was I mourning as a means of not allowing myself to let go of the once-happiness? Once I was finished mourning would happiness then accept me? Would it be accepting me back? Would this just be some joy of overcoming sadness and mourning? How could I get the real happiness back? Could it even be so real if it caused such lasting and genuine mourning?