Shy Because

Most nights I'd describe this as shy
but it's always and still me wanting to just say hi
I want to say something sweet and nice
but always go with the backup because
my defenses are just too high
and no one would think to ask
why
and i want to give you honesty but
when you open yourself up wide
you're leaving that door open for a cold draft
i guess once you've been that rejected
you just then know you gotta keep yourself ultra protected
aware it makes it more difficult for a connection
but each new face is not so much a fresh opportunity
but an old tired and bitter projection


and you'll forget that the shadow is unaware of what they've done
that nobody especially a lover would want to do that to someone