Always Did

and if living well is the best revenge

then it is mutually clear it was never what we wanted

and if you knew me at all

you would remember I wasn't much

without your confirmations

and if I know you at all

I know not to mistake insincerity

for genuine happiness

and if I could tell you anything

it would be that it still hurts

because it always did

and you would if you could

tell me that you don't feel

any of it