you are struggling so desperately to be human
   and I guess we always did have opposing problems
   I won't ever meet you half way
   to do so, there will never again be enough of me

   I clawed and sifted in the ashes of trust
   deconstructed and picked apart the illusions and magic
   so down on my humanity, and down on my luck

   "can't take what you did not have,
   can't even give it back"

   "I am the first to be deceived,
   if I can make myself believe, the rest is easy"

   "sure as the rain will fall,
   some love just fails"