Accident

i'm sorry i can't talk to you tonight, to explain
your presence brings all of my insecurities back into the light
and if i could i would turn off all the lights, and blockade my door
keep out all these strangers, not that even you know me anymore
can't glance in a mirror can't go outside, couldn't find it in me to break this mold
i know i'm a fraud and have distaste for my surroundings
i haven't forgotten for you i have a reputation and some standards of self to uphold
cause flesh and blood found their way not to leave me like that in the cold
i've been there
and that's what i fear, i've seen the face of loss of interest, it's a look i can't bear again
it's foolish and dramatic, but misery is finding something i can adore in a friend


the root of the problem was found, the poison in the water source as well as its reason
cause i've been drinking in this shallowness, swallowing it for quite some seasons