Scraped

I try to bare my soul
but your name comes out
like marbles
I try to look for help
but it sounds an awful lot like
ice on a windshield

everywhere I go
they are saying your name
your reputation succeeds you
and consumes me

I am finding out about worth
and it seems worth it

if I am grateful for nothing else
it is learning

(I see you and the whole rest of my life is ruined
also this has been the hardest year
but I will not say that
the next)