Belittling Or Something

He was right about one thing, no one is stuck here, they are trapped in their minds, and their bodies dwell and linger here. 
Whenever, however, whoever, I am leaving. Hopefully now you see what that means. I went to the dark, desolate doldrums, just to feel them, just to see if they were there. I am better for it, and I have taken care of as many things this year as not.
He thinks that he knows me, well I am deep so many layers in, he couldn't even find me if he were looking. Who even knows who I am any more. I will never say what it is I wish to, only to relish in you relishing in your last words (over and over again).

"I got lost on this head trip"