I Hope This is Beneficial for Us But Mostly for Me

"Despite these recent events, Philip was incapable of experiencing happiness. He counterbalanced his feelings of love and productivity with periods of extreme isolation, sometimes finding that days on end had passed since last leaving the house. Shortly after the rush of severing ties with those he believed to be poisonous to his mental health, Philip was too crippled with anxiety and dread to go outside for the better part of a week. Philip had harbored increasingly romantic notions about what this period in his life would mean, until one day, a few months before the publication of his second novel, he abruptly became confidently disenfranchised to the point of despondency."