Just to Hold You Closer

she says that i've been saying a lot of stupid shit
fucked up on sleeping pills late at night
and every other time of day

i long to tell her everything, really everything
or hide away forever

she admits that everyone liked her better when she was 19 
and now people only pretend
i imagine all of our accumulated baggage 
and agree with her

the cough syrup tastes so familiar i want to hug it

if anyone i love is feeling so totally excluded
so completely cut out of the picture
well know that i did cut you out

just to hold you closer