Cold Dark

i have so much attention to give
i bet you miss that
i bet everyone misses that about me

i grabbed the back of his neck with such intention
it couldn't have been about him
but for a moment i thought that it was
and that was nice

if i told her that i didn't want to be alone she would respond that i do not have to be and i would feel more isolated than ever before thinking how some people never know what it must feel to have to be

do you think you like to pick a fight? i get asked
not a fight, i reply
i want a reaction, i'm looking and hoping to see that someone feels a fraction of what i feel
that desperate to see it

being with people leaves me feeling only
overstimulated 

i wake up to a cold, dark room
no end in sight
i think that's okay