this is your year, the suffering and anguish are over (last two years). school will make you happy drive/inspire you. there is a new close female friend coming, also a male friend later. a man comes who is very bad/dark, watch out for him. he will talk about the future and plans and be too fast, and I will know. school timing is not right now, this very day, but next few months/spring, it will go well, make me feel good, I can complete it. it was not the time before, it is supposed to happen now and is the right thing. how to move from anxiety/depression/anguish: be quiet. be alone. rich inner world. think, meditate on things, stay grounded, recharge alone, not with people.
q: work and living situation
work is not paying me enough/what I am worth, "this what they get". it sucks when an employee takes another employee with them, but surrounded by people I want to be surrounded by, more money, more opportunity. employer will be happy for me and be okay. time there is coming to an end, but I CAN STAY.
I need a new car. have i been thinking about it. not yet, but things will fall into place to help me with that, and making a plan in the next few weeks, start the idea. I need a good car.
q: living situation
not leaving yet. nowhere to go. this will get better, have to report to management. landlord will take care of problems. could have to stay up until 6 months, but things will get better there. need aroma therapy there, lots of candle and plants. need to change the energy and vibrations in the room. scents. will move, when timing is right, bay area, might not be oakland.
do you want a boyfriend? yes, you do. you will be in a better place for it, accepting but not for a while longer. you knew you would not attract a good person with where you were emotionally. dating app, iphone. someone will come with dark hair, glasses, half jewish looking, will kick my butt/not allow me to sulk. he will be really funny. he is a good one. there will be someone I will know by their scent (a man) and it will not be cologne.
uranus and pluto have been going through squares, which means that the people who left had to (which I didn't know or accept) but they had to make room, they were for old self not new self.
q: friends, people still in life
lizz: she's fine, she needs nothing, you need to do nothing more to make her happy, she has her shit together, do nothing, don't worry about it
austin: broke your heart a bit leaving, not speaking card, needs you to reach out, start dialogue, plant the seed for friendship, the friendship is not currently grounded, just water it and see what happens, this won't go to how they were and it will take time, he wants to hear from you. sorry but there is new 'a new girl'. being a pussy/wimp in this life, afraid of the world he needs to be out in.
chris: not talking, new woman who is whole life, he is still like family to you, he thinks you are fine because you are, new girlfriend is controlling and he is allowing himself to be whipped, he is not aware of how much time has passed between you two, you're looking at your watch, he will come back when they fight like nothing was wrong
bethany: important life person, soul-sister, karma relationship, conflict card, negative emoting card/talking behind your back. looking for/getting advice. has craziness with mother, and because mother relationship needs your friendship. IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE. can help each other with boy/relationship stuff, good way to connect.
dylan and you are close, boundaries important, talk to him/do not try to help, don't talk about painful things, just be there, he will get job, dad is making him stay, dad will bless his leaving and he will move. dylan and I are like twins born a few years apart, healing myself is how I'll help him. connected/close.
family myads, you take the lessons you can handle, ansestrial, anxiety/nervous system.
see psychiatrist, medication will be good and I know is helpful, will not lose any focus on goals. hypnotherapy important and must do. pills for sleep and for mood/stability. everything will be figured out with this soon, with sleep, diet, this year, I am not sleeping and need to. sacred heart/walnut.
q: small press/printing
success card. good idea. I have helpers that will help me. keep as side hobby, positive, positive outlet, will do well. write. find writers. plan and develop in next few weeks or months. dad can help, publishing common ground.
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