Time Was a Vacuum but Admittedly This Sucks

"I was in pain."

you speak so hushed I cannot hear

only feel it

everyone rendered see-through if i were to search for your spirit

I've been reading about entanglement

been listening on the radio about tethered objects

they said everything that has a beginning has an inevitable end

the sun only shines because it is burning out

but somedays I can see so clearly 

that we never really started

like we will never really end

when I was waiting for you to forget all about me

you said you painted me from memory

well some days

I can't see your love for me in the squint of your eyes anymore

the hint of a smile

and I worry that's it's been a fucking while

so I stop looking at your pictures

stop writing my words

the dreams never cease 

and I've never felt so close to a human

time is irrelevant

and I hope you, too have found some peace in that

remember when you said I was a bar rat

and I called you, out

almost an hour and a half

I held that phone so close

as close as I could get

and I still listen to those songs

and I still drive by your old house 

the phone poll I hit 

the bottles in the window

drunk in love with you

I can still feel the magic

that realm dancing just before my eyes

almost reached my fingers out 

to touch it

those many treacherous nights 

bury me like a time capsule

I am nothing but a vessel for this love

and dig me up, any time you feel alone

sometimes I curl up in the empty space left

cannot be found for days and weeks on end 

you were the one who changed clocks

who read my mind

I inked my lip

because you made forever not scary

not long enough

I've never trusted anything as much 

will never miss anything like lying in your bed feeling eternally fucked