Hear My Beaten Heart Exclaim

""you tried?" I looked her in the eye and smiled,
"my girl, you must understand that fear is not some product that I made.
it crept unwelcome in my head the day they had her torn away.
it changed me.

now at the end of everyday I lie awake at night and wait
to feel the wires of my brain get cut and quietly rearranged, and
hear my beaten heart exclaim, 'still, I refuse to let her go.'"

so we escape to our mistakes for they wait patiently for us.
oh, how they always wait for me.

if my fear has kept me here only my fear can set me free.

and I'm sorry, dear, but don't you dare speak another word.
how could I risk holding your heart in me while still in love with her?""