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My epiphany today I guess is really actually about people not changing their actions in regards to the other person's actions. People would do what they would do, which is what they want to do.
My brother asked today why it was that him and I are slightly different in that. I thought about it for a while, thinking that I do do what I want to regarding other people (despite them). Then I wrote you a poem, and never told you, knowing that you would hate it. I think I just wish that things were as pretty for people as they deserve them to be. Which I think is also why I do not ever find myself good enough for your life, luckily I find people feeling bad enough to in turn find me suitable.
I think that I will spend a lifetime walking upon eggshells that were never even ever there.
I wrote the other day that you want and need someone who feels well but treats you shitty, meanwhile, I feel shitty but treat you well. 
Today I wrote you, thanking you for reteaching me trust and moderation (again), two things that got a bit skewed and shattered in the past.
I am really just worried that because I feel that I am nice, I am entitled to everything. The scariest thought being that this is all really just about me.